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As the second anniversary draws close

I woke up exactly at 5 am on Friday April 11th. I go to my office and write this. It was so unique, since I was not planning to be up this early. But I was so awake and ready to get up that I just got started with my day. Usually I sleep until 6 or 7 AM. I realized I woke up at exactly the time the accident happened, one week before the second anniversary. It’s almost like I sense Julie and Timothy saying to me, we are with you and want to walk by your side during this week in a special way

Over the past months I have felt the need to stop everything. I have intentionally taken time off to pray, think, grieve, cry, journal, reflect and pause. I have sensed an increasing need to pause this month. I have set aside, delegated and minimized all my responsibilities and duties. I believe this month will bring more healing to my soul and help me move forward.

After getting up and having a wonderful time with the Lord, I decided to get up at 5 am every morning until April 18th. I will take this time to be alone with God and to hear his voice. I look forward to this week as I believe it will mark an important before and after moment in my life.

I am aware of my loss, and I know things will never be the same. but I am also aware that I need to intentionally bring closure. As I do this more and more Anahi and I are, and will be picking up new routines and continue to create memories. 

We know God must have a purpose in all of this, and we need to continue regaining strength and the love for God and for living and enjoying the gift of life.

Thanks for reading and for allowing me to share this journey with you.


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